Ramblings of Me

So eleven years ago tomorrow my life forever changed. As much as I think I have moved on when the anniversary rolls around it seems like it were just yesterday. Instead of writing how sad it makes me to think of him around this time I will write about some of the things that made me glad he was my best friend.

:: I lived in a world where I was constantly struggling to keep up and fit in, but when I was around him it felt like home and I could be my true self::
::His smile::

::His laugh::

::His ability to cheer me up when I was uncontrollably upset::

::The way he set me straight..When I needed it::

::He was the glue that held us all together::

::He was a constant voice of reason in my very unreasonable world::

::He loved me, even through all my mistakes::

::He listened even though he had heard certain things a thousand times::

::He could never stay mad at me, nor me at him::

::He spoke with his eyes and I understood them::

::He knew I loved him even if I didn’t say it enough::

::He was a beautiful person::

::He was funny::

::He watched out for me::

::He was honest, even if it hurt to hear it sometimes::

My list could go on and on but those are the things that swirl through my head right now. He was many things to many people and in many different ways. To me, he was one of my greatest friends and will forever be a piece of my heart. I was only eighteen when he died and my world literally collapsed around me. It was the first time I had ever had to deal with death, and it was one of my greatest friends. I made a lot of bad choices due to not knowing how to handle is passing, but if he taught me anything it was that we learn from the choices we make. One day I made a choice to trust a boy who was teasing a girl in class. I normally never let anyone get close to me, honestly close; but I let him. And I may have only known him three short years but the memory of us, of him will live with me forever. I am grateful for him, blessed to have known someone like him…truly blessed.

I love and miss you my friend...

B